All I want to succeed in as far as my personal life is true
love and happiness. I’ve learned it is hard to find, I can’t remember a time
when I was truthfully happy, not knowing someone’s actual intentions is the
hardest thing when trying to find my happiness I don’t know if it’s me or my
past that cannot understand what honest loyalty is.. when I don’t feel loved I shut
down, I’m not asking for money, jewelry or anything materialistic I just want
love for once in my life I want to be treated the way I treat others that I love,
I know I’ve hurt many people but I’ve
never taken control of someone’s trust and broken it willingly with the
intention to hurt them, I’m feeling a lot of things and I don’t know how to
control it because I thought I was past the point of still searching for love. I
don’t understand the concept of not being in love with someone when it’s
obvious you should be, shit changes so fast I never know what to expect... I’m
so sensitive and I thought people that knew me would see this by know, I get
hurt when I feel something is wrong. Women are beings that need affection I don’t
know a woman that does not seek affection for her partner or spouse. If that is
all we ask for I don’t see that being too much. A hug or simple kiss sometimes wouldn’t
kill anyone or would it? I’m just confused at the moment of what love is supposed
to feel like…
